Saturday, September 17, 2011
Fall back into life...
In the spirit of seeking a more cheerful and grateful life, I am adopting a fall bucket list. These things excite me, and provide a sense of adventure and provide something to accomplish. I can't wait to get started!
Monday, September 12, 2011
Junk Mail
Today in my junk mail box I noted an email marked urgent! It said “Job offer (EMPLOYMENT)”.
I just continued on my way and clicked “empty” button, before going to real websites to continue on in the seemingly unending, fruitless-as-of-yet search for employment that has become my life. However, the enticement of that junk mail continued to haunt me. Oh for it to be that easy. I must confess I envy people for whom finding a job was not difficult, or those who get to continue their education and spend their days in school. While God is faithful and showing me so many new things and giving me time to hone skills I needed to spend more time on, and so many other things, I yearn to work with a nearly physical hunger. It’s overwhelming and all-consuming, and blocks the path of good perspective many days. Not getting my way, not knowing what to change (or how to change/better my circumstances) is wearying and depressing. And so I do the best I can. God is ever-moving, all-knowing, all-loving, never-changing and so so good, but this is definitely a more difficult season. Tonight I find myself praying for spring once more, and a chance to see His glory reign, not just for my pleasure alone, but so that He is what shines from me.
I just continued on my way and clicked “empty” button, before going to real websites to continue on in the seemingly unending, fruitless-as-of-yet search for employment that has become my life. However, the enticement of that junk mail continued to haunt me. Oh for it to be that easy. I must confess I envy people for whom finding a job was not difficult, or those who get to continue their education and spend their days in school. While God is faithful and showing me so many new things and giving me time to hone skills I needed to spend more time on, and so many other things, I yearn to work with a nearly physical hunger. It’s overwhelming and all-consuming, and blocks the path of good perspective many days. Not getting my way, not knowing what to change (or how to change/better my circumstances) is wearying and depressing. And so I do the best I can. God is ever-moving, all-knowing, all-loving, never-changing and so so good, but this is definitely a more difficult season. Tonight I find myself praying for spring once more, and a chance to see His glory reign, not just for my pleasure alone, but so that He is what shines from me.
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